Menjaga Anugerah

Terbangun di dalam suasana pagi yang masih gelap. Nikmati Venus di ufuk timur. Tangan ini masih memegang Al-Qur’an yang tadi ku baca. Pada halaman itu tercetak terjemahan dari Q.S Al-Fussilat ayat 54, yang berbunyi:

“Kami akan memperlihatkan kepada mereka tanda (kebesaran) Kami di segenap penjuru dan pada diri mereka sendiri sehingga jelaslah bagi mereka bahwa Al-Qur’an itu adalah benar. Tidak cukupkah (bagi kamu) bahwa Tuhanmu menjadi saksi atas segala sesuatu?”

Air mata ku luruh, seiring timbulnya kesadaran bahwa tanda-tanda Allah itu juga ada pada diri mu. Bahasa manusia menyebutnya cinta. Sesuatu yang membuatku tidak berkutik. Syaraf parasimpatetik ku pun berhenti, sehingga paru-paru ini lupa mengambil oksigen dari luar.

Maka izinkan aku menjaga anugerah terindah milikmu itu. Dengan menggunakan jarak terjauh, sehingga aku tidak akan mampu menodai anugerah itu. Mungkin sejauh aku memandang venus saat ini, agar kau tetap suci.

Allah, jagalah anugerah itu dariku.

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Sorry, from couple years ago, this blog is just fulfill by stupidity of me,

Why it is so hard to fly far-far away living my beloved? Changes has made by willing to change, and live is should change. They had left beatiful scar on my memory.

Many people say, everyone have to posses a capability to adapt with change.

Today, I change to unidentified form.

I really miss my family, my best friends.

Chit chat about something,

Once Isti said to me, “I want to cry a lot, I  have a good life, nice family and friends, so I have no reason for cry river.” And it happened to me as well.

Bunuh Diri

Fortunately those words never come up to my mind to overcome the problem. Maybe because it’s believe as sinful action, that I engulfed without chewed first at my very youngest age.

Recently I’ve started my reading activity about psychology, and found about a bunch of mental health problem sufferred by Americans. One of them is Halting their life through suicide.

Heh? Kok bisa sih?

I was though they are happy to have free sex, alcohol, drugs, and no need to see their Jesus every day. One thing, the millitary seems easy to take out many soul from kids in Iraq, Afghanistan, and of course in Palestine.

Depression is a stage of someone’s feeling before they decide go to terminal life. Many psychotherapy had provided to help people, growing self-efficacy, and start their knew life. Does Psychotheraphy effective enough? I don’t know.

 Maybe because it’s believe as sinful action, so I never put this plan to living my life. It is kind of psychology? I do not know baby....