Damn!!! I miss him.........

I miss you so much papa!!!

Kita ga pernah ngomong layaknya kayak aku ke mama, iya kan? Bahkan kita sering berantem...
Kita sering merendahkan arti diri kita satu sama lain...

Ternyata dengan adanya ketidakpastian ini, ketidakpastian akan seperti apa masa depan keluarga kita, rasa itu datang..

Rasa menginginkan satu sama lain berada didekatnya,,,

Tanpa kata, rasa rindu itu semakin kuat lewat perilaku nonverbal...

Sedih waktu pulang ke padang, diri mu ga ada, aku merasa ditinggalkan..
tapi suka cara papa pas ke kamar ku... terus matiin lampu biar aku tidur lelap...padahal sih jelas2 aku ga bisa tidur dalam kegelapan...takut aja...

jujur aja sih aku sebel sama papa, karena aku tidak merasa dibimbing untuk jadi orang dewasa yang seharusnya...

ketika aku menulis ini perih bgt rasanya..ada kangen yang tak terlukis,,
Lain ketika aku inget mama, air mata masih bisa ku tahan,,,

Aku harap papa baik2 aja n bisa masuk surga hehehehe,,,,,

I now you see me in your silent, so do I. Aku benar2 cetakan mu yah...

Hope I can learn something from you about this life.. I know you are not mature enough although you are getting older day by day...

I wish the best for us....

from your neurosis daughter

Unspeakable

Ketika apa yang dipikirkan dan dirasakan tidak dapat diutarakan...

Hanya bisa menarik nafas dalam2 supaya bisa ternetralisir dengan sendirinya...

Di saat ini aku butuh sahabat...

Bukannya mereka ga ada untuk aku,,

Tapi aku ga mau membebani mereka lagi...

Masalah mereka sudah berat, jangan ditambah lagi...

Aku sayang sahabat ku...

Kangen Masak!!!

Pinku-pinku,,,
bukan berarti kalo gue bisa masak sih,,,hehehe
yang penting masakan gue cocok sama lidah and selera gue..

Gue kangen banget masak makaroni skoteng,,masak spaghetti, masak nasi goreng,,terus ikan bakar, roti bakar, pisang bakar..

Bikin sop, bkin perkedel, bikin kue,,bikin agar2,,bikin sayur bening

pokoknya yang enak2 deh,,,

Di tempat gue yang sekarang, gue ga bisa masak, gara2 dapurnya jorok, peralatan masak juga gue belom punya, ga ada kulkas,,,matilah saya..

di sini makanan selalu gue beli,,,beneran ga sehat makanan di sini.

Terlalu berminyak ato bersantan. Yang ada sebelum umur 40an gue udah kena stroke, jantung, diabetes, kanker, and penyakit2 terkenal lainnya..MantaBS kan?

di sini pengeluaran makan juga gede banget!! ga kayak di jogja yang cuman 5000 udah bisa makan and minum enak pake es jeruk..

Di sini beli laku bisa sih 5000 doank,,,,tapi,,,kalo pake nasi jadi 9000,,buset? nasi doank 4000 ya?

Adakah orang yang pingin masak bareng aku?

yuks mari,,,kita bikin ikan gurame asam manis...hohoho...
;D

Fear

It's one of emotion that belong to every man.
Your heart pounding loudly and fast.
You sweat.
You shiver.
And even it's too difficult to swallow your own saliva.

In this circumstance you'll face two option.
Fight or Not.

Long Journey

and it was ended with got occasional Job as coolie!!!Praise Lord!!

I succeeded to carry out all my stuff in which were more than 20Kg. Passed through human sea and got the check-in counter at 14:15. *and the take off scheduled at 14:50*. There is one opinion about polonia int'l airport, that it is has no difference with Terminal Bus Pulo Gadung.

The best part happened on new second, and new minute. My cousins suffered a trance, coz their grandfather had come.

During on my vacation, I lost my passion to eat since I can't distinguish which one was halal or haram. *Please don't consider the Martabaks, KFC, teh susu, pop mie, mie ayam, tahu, ikan bakar, lontong, nasi gurih, and ehm.... ok, I forget, I tell you one more time, I lost the appetite.*

If you pork eater, you can try Babi Panggang Karo,a.k.a BPK, my cousins really love it. I don't recommend this menu for people who already old enough *around fourty and above* if you keen to slow down the death.

I stayed little bit longer in Aek popo, which is surrounded by hills called Bukit Barisan. *Damn I just known this fact, while my cousin already now this fact at 8 years old, and she is at 8 years old now!*

As you opened the door, the mother earth served you with Gunung si piso-piso. While I'm at 6, 8, and even at 12, I always wondered where they put those knives, I didn't see them even one.

I don't know the exact temperature of its weather, but it's okay if you don't want take a bath for couple days... *Oooppss did I tell u a secret of mine?*

You don't believe me? You should not until your skin cleaned by water pull out from refrigerator.

Did I visit Toba Lake? OF COURSE YESS!!! It's much better than Bali. Silalahi is the best spot for swim as far as I know.

Not only torrent of money you must spent to enjoy this vacation, but also it spent your energy a lot. So prepare you self well..

I bet you will be the best........

Coolie....